the good, the bad and thanksgiving

so I've been feeling really down lately.. i am not sure exactly why though i do have a few ideas. first of all, i don't like being independent. it's to much work. i never really wanted to grow up. so, part of it is that i want to move back home and live off of mom and dad for another couple of years. but i can't do that because that would make me look like a baby, and i would have to some how find a job out there which is nearly impossible if i don't want to work at co-op, d&T's or a gas station. well, that's exaggerating a little.

then there is the job that i have already. it is not very much fun. i almost hate it sometimes. i think i would cry everyday at work if i let myself. and i dread waking up in the morning. i honestly do not like it at all. so, today on the way back to the city i decided that if it is making my life so horrible, it is time to quit. tomorrow or the next day or maybe the next i will go to some places and find me a better job. after i decided this, there was almost instant relief...almost. but i still have to work tomorrow and the next and the next.

next on my list of things that make me down is buses. they are not very nice. they never come at the right time or if they do it takes an hour to get anywhere. that is also part of the reason i want to quit Canadian tire.

there is also probably the biggest reason for my downness...not to be mistaken with the downy softness of a pillow. i think it has a lot to do with the fact that my relationship with God is in a bit of a rut. i hate it when i get to lazy to spend time with him but it always seems to happen. so, i am trying hard to try hard but i am having a bit of a difficult time with it.

so, now you all know my problems, well some of them. i wonder if there is anything good to share....

i know! thanksgiving. i love thanksgiving. i guess it isn't thanksgiving yet but we celebrated it today and let me tell you...the food was DELICIOUS!! i love food! i love food! but if i say it that many times it sounds like i am obsessing over it which is not the case but that food is amazing! good job mom! i am almost positive that i will not have to eat again for at least two days.