कैन यू रीड थिस

इ वांट सोमोने तो लोवे मी! इ ऍम सो अलोने. What I just wrote is a secret! Ha! You can't know what I said. I think I will start saying things about you guys in that strange language. Wouldn't that be fun? I should eb working on my Chem due tomorrow but I am very sick of it. I have done half a chapter already and I think that I can do the rest later. But I should also be working on English...but why should I because she says that she will not mark anything that was due before Christmas. I think I will still try to had some in. My marks are going to go down a lot if I don't. I had like 3 assignments that were supposed to be done...shame on you Janette! I haven't been able to consentrate on anything today...I always end up staring into space and just thinking, actually I don't think that I am even thinking that much. Just sitting there. I have been a bit discouraged today but I don't know why. I hope my day improves but it doesn't look to hopefull. I have to work after school and am not looking forward to it like you probably already know because all I talk about is work. I will try to stop, but I want to make conversation and that is all I ever do. Maybe my life will become more interesting in the next couple months. Only a few more months and I will graduate! Yay! That is exciting, but kind of scary...especially since I do not know what I am going to do. I thought that I was going to The Blanche Macdonald Center in BC but I don't know if that's what I am supposed to do. I have a feeling that I am supposed to do something else but when I prayed about it, God told me not to worry about it. His words were, "you are worried and upset about many things, but only one thing is needed. Mary has chosen what is better, and it will not be taken away from her." So, I think that it is pretty clear that I should just wait, listen, and not worry about what my future will be. But it is harder than it sounds. I want to know now so I can plan. Ugh, it is so frustrating. But I got to go. It's almost 3:30!